Posted by: Tj'ièn | February 17, 2011


It has been a while since my last post here, but I suddenly felt the urge to write…

Lately, I’ve been overwhelmed. I’ve been overwhelmed by a lot of things, by what’s happening in my personal life as well as what has happened in my professional life. I suddenly realized that I was overwhelmed when I was mindlessly browsing the net when I decided to go and have another look at our studio’s blog and see if there where any new posts and then my attention was drawn to the names at the side, links to the blogs of our studio’s artists. And while I visited each of their blogs I not only realized how talented they are, something I was quite aware of before this particular visit, but I realized they are all working on their dreams. They are all really trying to make their ambitions a reality, something I can only show the deepest respect for.

Some months ago the designers at our studio, including myself, were treated to a prototyping workshop by Vlambeer’s Jan Willem. Since then I’ve occasionally been following Vlambeer and their journey into the games industry and they seem to be doing really well, giving talks and lectures across the country, winning the Global Game Jam Netherlands and soon. These guys are working hard on their ambitions and they are fulfilling their dreams, and they also make it seem easy.

Since a few weeks I’ve been counseling game design students with their graduation project, which allows them to create something stunning without a pre-determined outcome set by their education, but only set out by them. In our first meeting they had to present themselves, their skills and their ambitions for after school while providing some details on their project as well. I’ve always found it extremely fun to help students achieve their goals, work on their skills as a designer and improve their chances on landing a job in the industry or start their own company. It’s fun to see people working on achieving their dreams.

When I started this article I didn’t know where it would end, or why I should write it in the first place. But now I slowly start to understand that the people that have impressed me the last couple of months are the people that are really chasing their dreams. So why is it that these observations strike a particular chord with me? Why am I touched, and moved. Why do I feel the need to put my thoughts on paper? Why do they make me feel anxious, nervous, jealous, tense and insecure? Could it be that it is time for me to chase my dreams? But what are my dreams?

Surely something I need to think about.



  1. I’ve noticed that when you reach a certain age and point in your carreer you tend to stand still more often at what you’re doing, what you’ve experienced but also what you want to accomplish with the rest of your life. You become more and more self-aware and get an urge to want to accomplish bigger things, maybe even trying to realise dreams that you thought were impossible to accomplish in an earlier part of your life.
    I’ve also noticed that I get more inspired and motivated when I see other people trying to make cool stuff or even following their dreams. I hear where you’re coming from 🙂

    • Maybe it’s age, but I’m not too worried about that, in fact I’m only reminded by my birthday that I have an age 🙂 I’ve always had trouble relaxing my mind, and focusing on a single thing. That’s why I wanted to be in games, as I feel it united all my hobbies. I also have something of a long term plan, but it hasn’t crystallized yet.. Maybe that’s what I should be working on. Thanks for your thoughts!

      • I guess I noticed that I couldn’t relax my mind when I got older 😀
        Maybe I found a way to manage my mind more and become aware…hmpf 😉

  2. Thanks for your thoughts! You can only recognize what´s in jour soul already! Looking forward what your dreams will be! Thanks anyway for sharing! Theije

    • No problem, thanks for reading and dropping by 🙂

  3. You touch me. It feels like you are heading ‘home’. Returning to whom you really are.

    • I think that’s true in a sense. I think my mind is settling down now that I feel comfortable with everything in life. Now this sounds overly dramatic, as I’ve always been very happy with everything, but now everything seems to fall in its place somehow. Thanks for dropping by.

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  5. a man should always aspire to chase his dreams, I hope you find out what yours are. The feeling you describe is something that popped my mind around 3 years ago and I am still looking. I thought I had it all figured out but to this date I am still not sure of what my dreams are. I have seen the people around me accomplish much and often feel overwhelmed by their succes. This caused me to fall a bit to the background while I watched others move forward pursue their dreams. I am currently in the process of overstepping my doubts and plan to catch up to all those dreamchasers and hope I find my own along the way. So all I can say is good luck on your search!

    • Thanks! And thanks for sharing. Sometimes a man should take a break and step back to realize what he’s supposed to do. It’s great to hear you’re in the process of overstepping your doubts, remember that they’re all in your mind and that doubts are not reality.

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